[Review & Spoiler] Turns Out He’s Been Secretly in Love with Me (Female-dominant)

The Depths of Obsession

Throughout the story, Xu Muzhou’s emotions towards Fang Chuxing are depicted as an intense, all-consuming obsession that borders on the pathological. From childhood, he has fixated on her as the sole object of his affections, to the point where his entire sense of self and purpose revolves around winning her love.

This obsession manifests in deeply conflicted ways. On the surface, Xu Muzhou presents a gentle, polite facade to Fang Chuxing.  Yet beneath this veneer of kindness lurks a possessive, controlling nature. He becomes irrationally jealous when other boys show interest in Fang Chuxing, resorting to underhanded tactics to sabotage potential rivals.

The depth of Xu Muzhou’s feelings is revealed in moments of vulnerability, his fragile emotional state hinges entirely on her attention and approval. When she seems to pull away, he experiences acute distress and anxiety.

At the same time, there is a manipulative edge to Xu Muzhou’s actions. He deliberately puts himself in situations where Fang Chuxing must care for him, exploiting her sense of duty. He uses his asthma attacks and delicate health to evoke her sympathy and protectiveness.

Ultimately, Xu Muzhou’s feelings exist in a state of constant tension – between genuine adoration and twisted possessiveness, between childlike neediness and calculated manipulation. He both worships Fang Chuxing and seeks to control her, terrified of losing the person who has become his entire world. This internal struggle drives much of the drama and conflict in their relationship dynamic.

When Fang Chuning left for 5 years, Xu Muzhou was devastated. He spent 4 years desperately searching for her, his heart aching with each day she was gone. Her absence left him feeling empty and lost.

Learning of her engagement to Tang Jiali crushed Xu Muzhou. In despair, he attempted suicide to prove his love. Tears streamed down his face as he stood on the ledge, begging for another chance.

When Fang Chuning finally accepted him, Xu Muzhou was overjoyed. He clung to her desperately, afraid of losing her again. His possessive behavior stemmed from deep-seated insecurity.

During his pregnancy, Xu Muzhou’s emotions were turbulent. He craved constant attention and reassurance, crying when she worked late. His mood swings reflected both love and fear of abandonment.

Throughout their relationship, Xu Muzhou’s feelings ranged from shy adoration to obsessive devotion. His actions – from subtle glances to dramatic gestures – all stemmed from an intense, all-consuming love for Fang Chuning that defined his entire being.

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